Strong Enough

It's been a while...I feel like this blog is going to be long, but who reads anyway? :)


So, I finished the revision of Ava's Story on Christmas Eve, sent off for the copyright a couple of weeks ago and now Shay ( love her to life!) is reading the revision for me. I can't say that I am not excited about being a published author. Someone at work actually wants to throw me a book signing. How about that? I'm a little nervous that no one will come, but once I see that printed book with my name across it, I won't care in the least bit. It's been a long time coming and I believe that I deserve to be proud of myself. Full time worker, full time student and published author and CEO of Dynamic Image Publications at 22? My grind is something so official!

In other news, and I do feel like getting personal, my heart hurts.

Call me a little selfish, but I feel like I already have enough on my plate to be in love alone. You know that song, "Made a Fool" that plays at the end of Love and Basketball when they are playing one on one? "What kind of fool am I, to be easily pushed aside?" Well, that is a question that plagues my mind. I am a very emotional person, I got attached and who wouldn't after a year a half? I see that I can be pushed out of sight and out of mind, but I can't do that. Am I wrong for wanting to feel included in someone's life? A life that I was told I was apart of?

My family is at odds and my granny's 70th birthday is coming up next week. My mom is so stressed, trying to hold relationships together but as I've told her and she's told me times in the past: We can't please everyone. All we can do is pray and seriously just let it go! We can't fix everything nor are we responsible to. We do what we can through God and let him handle the rest. He doesn't need anybody else.

I want to be able to talk to my man about this, but he's in his own little world right now. At a time I feel like he was the only one who understood me besides God....at least I don't have to doubt the latter.

School has started back up and I must get more rest than last semester. Although that 3.3 was good on paper, it was not good to the relationship between my bed and I. It's time to focus on me. 1. God and me. 2. Dynamic Image and me. 3. My progression towards my degree and me. That sounds good to me.

Sorry this was so long, next time I won't wait so long to update.

Creative love, as always....

Cash