Moving the tassel to the left

On this past Saturday, I graduated from SIUE. I will admit that I was not excited until I got up to the platform and they called my name. Most of my family was there to support me and my love was there too. I couldn't stop smiling. I did it.

Now I'm ready to stack up my money and go hard for Dynamic Image. I want 2010 to be a good year for us and I know that requires a lot of hard work and dedication on my part. Being the boss, I have to work 100 times harder than anyone else. I cannot expect anyone to work as hard as me. So I must led by example.

I am also beginning to change my mind about graduate school. If I only took one semester off, I could probably get my Masters before I'm 25. That wouldn't be a bad idea, but right now I'm focused on saving for a move and getting at least three projects for DI out in 2010.

What's up world!!?!! LOL

Creative love...

Twitter

So me and my ladies are getting the hang of twitter. I know we aren't famous, but we're hopeful. LOL It's kind of fun for some reason but I would like to get more followers to grow our fan base. Birds in the Rain - the first Dynamic Image Publications Compilation Book is in progress and I will admit that I'm excited about it. This will feature myself, Shay and Jazze and all of our wonderful talents. I'm excited for you all to get to know them. I'm sure you will love them just like I do.

Birds in the Rain is going to feature 2-3 short stories from each of us and a little something extra to introduce the world to Dynamic Image. I'm am hoping that it is released in late January, early February and then I will work on getting My Joy, my second novel, out in the Spring.

I would love to see at least three projects out with DI next year I want to make our fourth birthday extra special. I thank God for the progress we are making. Ava's Story has been featured in SIUE's Alestle and has sold 114 out of my trunk! (and a few on the website - www.dynamicimagepublications.com)

Since Ava was my first baby, she does have a few mistakes that I plan to wrinkle out within the next month or so. I want to get her in stores but I'm so satisfied with how she is doing so far. Remember, you have not seen the last of Ava. (An Inevitable Fate is coming!)

Creatively love you all and God Bless!

Writing reality - A&E

So today I was featured in my university's newspaper for Ava's Story. Although I dispise the picture, I thank God for the opportunity. Check it out

Writing reality - A&E

47 Days...

If you can look back in your life and remember a time when that dream you had, or that goal you had suddenly became real? Well yesterday, it hit me that I will have my bachelor's degree in 47 days. In 47 days I will be able to sleep peacefully without having to worry about no days off. In 47 days I will only have work, church and Dynamic Image on my schedule instead of work, school, internship church and Dynamic Image.

I'm so excited because not only will I so be on my grown woman with a BS in Mass Communications (Corporate and Institutional Media), I will have more time to be the boss lady! I believe that God is going to do great things for my independent publishing company. Prayfully (Not hopefully) Birds in the Rain - the first ever Dynamic Image compilation book will be out in January. I'm so excited to showcase Jazze and Shay to the world. The talent in DI is endless and you really need to be aware of it.

As always stated, our passion and devotion lies within motivation. We want to see others inspired by our work. We want to give a hope to those who feel like all is gone. Stay with us and pray with us!

Atonement

I believe in my soul, that the only thing standing between you and I
is me.
I wonder where our relationship fell into this never ending circle of deceit
and lies, trapped in my mind of courageous stupidity.
Happens, ever so often, to come to the convicting reality that
I created this separation.
A long time coming, our distance is only magnified by my mistakes.
You are perfection, within me that I have infected.
Only when I open my heart completely, will your presence flood that mere second.
My appreciation falls on idle hands that do not take the time deserved to live in you.
My gratefulness falls on death ears that do not hear enough of your praises.
What lies here is not developing as we both would love time to allow,
situations are expressive of our struggle
You are peace, within that I have diseased with worry
My lack of expressive faith as boggled us down, stagnent.
I thank you for the realization that I cannot wish or desire to stay here, without all of you.
So my atonement is to push through, even if I feel to no avail
I know my true confessions will lead me back to You.

My Joy

So, I'm thinking of publishing My Joy next. It's about a chapter away from being done and since I haven't started on An Inevitable Fate: Ava's Sequel, I don't want to wait until it's finished to publish again.

As you may or may not know, I started My Joy with a former Dynamic Image writer. She wrote a few chapters but in the end, it became a single effort on my part. I haven't talked to her in months and I was honestly hurt at her disappearance from Dynamic Image. Now, I understand that life is lived and sometimes we can't control what circumstances present themselves and mess up other plans. I was really worried because she had become like a sister to me. It seemed as if whenever I had an idea or thought, she next exactly how I felt, moreso than a lot of people I've known all of my life. I still pray for her and things, but I feel our creative relationship has deaded itself.

So do I offer her credit for the chapters she wrote, or do I rewrite them so that the book is completely mine? I'm really not sure how to handle this situation and I feel like it needs to be addressed soon. Only thing I can honestly do is pray that God shows me what needs to be done. There are legal as well as moral issues and I don't want to step on either one of them.

We had so many dreams and aspirations for Dynamic Image and she was honestly one of the original reasons I started Dynamic Image in the first place. When I saw how incredibly talented she was and her drive to write, I knew that I had to make an outlet for the world to hear her, and my other writers', stories. In the process of creating Dynamic Image and building it's foundation, I have lost two very creative and talented individuals, but I still believe in my dream.

Quality over quantity.

Having a talent is not the only thing that is needed to succeed. You need faith, determination, devotion against all odds and a will to want to inspire others through your work. As long as I have that, Dynamic Image will thrive.

Decisions

So Ava has been published for about a month, so far I've sold 63 and looking for more ways to market it, as well as Dynamic Image (dynamicimagepublications.com !!!!!) It's also my last semester of undergrad, full-time still at work (yay me =\) and an internship at The Alton Telegraph. I shouldn't have to worry about not having support.

A situation presented itself earlier, for me to possibly have dinner with someone famous. I'm excited because not only am I a fan, but I take it as a promotional experience for what I'm trying to do. And my man sees it as a date?

I'm clueless...I have never really truly gave this man any reason to think that I was doing him wrong. I do a lot for him, I'm always there for him, I tell him what I think about things he wants to do, just out of caring and wanting him to succeed. And you feel like this? I want to know what I've done to make him feel this way...but at the same time, at this time in my life, where God has placed me. I shouldn't have to. What to do?

Creative Love

Fall 2009

So this upcoming fall semester is my anticipated last semester as an undergraduate student. I have three classes on top of an internship and a full time job. Due to the schedule of my internship I have a decision to make...I can stay at full-time and never have a day off unless I take a personal or vacation day...or I can go down to part-time, lose my benefits and may not be able to go back to full time once school is over. Hum...what to do?

Ava's Story

:sighs: It's finally happening. All things are turned in and the proof should be arriving to me this week. I started Ava's Story in the end of 2005, finished it in 2007 and two years later, its published. God has blessed me and even if I don't get any good reviews or sell many copies, I am so thankful that my life-long dream of being a published author has come true. When I was young and they asked me in kindergarten what I wanted to be, I said I wanted to be a writer. I never realized that unlike so many childhood dreams, this one would stick with me for a long time.

I've realized that I just want to inspire. I want my writer's to inspire. I want Dynamic Image to mean something special. I want people to be able to see our logo on a book and know that when they finish reading it, they will be inspired to do more, motivated to live and not let people hold them back. I want my writer's to have the faith that their words will inspire many, even if we only touch one life, it will be a blessing in itself.

Shay, Jazze and Shina are so talented and I pray that they realize it. I pray to God that I can help them inspire others. All I want them to worry about is God, themselves, their loved ones and their writing and leave the rest up to me. I pray that God puts me in a position to do what we have been called to do.

To see so many people excited for me as brought me to tears (nothing unusual right? =] ) A friend of mine brought me back to high school when I used to print my stories out in these huge binders and pass them around school. Everyday someone would come ask me if I had any books available or could they get one next. We usually got in trouble: me for writing and them for reading. But I had a purpose, a God-given purpose.

All in all, even though things are hectic as I near the end of my college career, I am blessed. Thank you Jesus! I know when they deliver the books to my house, that I am going to fall on them and cry....

I did it.

I Can't

I've been told several times in my life that I let what other people do effect me way too much. I get upset easily and my feelings seem to always be hurt. I always wondered why I was the cry baby, why I had to be the one who showed emotions too quickly, and I still have no answer.

All I know is, I'm tired. I'm so tired of being around numerous people who do not care about how I feel whatsoever. I'm tired of having to try and hold my emotions in so others won't say that I'm trippin as usual. I'm so tired of wanting the approval of others. I feel as if I have let people hold me back way too long. When does it end? Shouldn't I be able to feel comfortable about expressing my feelings to the person who claims to want to marry me? Shouldn't I be able to talk to my family, my so-called close friends about how I feel?

But as usual...I can't....

Stuck

I haven't been writing at all, and it royally sucks. I can't seem to focus on my work because school and work have been exhausting. I feel stuck and I am not liking it at all. There is so much drama in my life right now and I feel that I'm at a point where I need to make some changes. I'm scheduled to graduate in December and I don't want it to sneak up on me without me being prepared.

I feel like their is a lot riding on Dynamic Image. People's dreams and aspirations and I don't want it to be a let down. I want everyone working with me to believe that this is what God has called us to do and NOTHING that he has his hand on fails.

Pray for me.

Creative Love,

22 and Counting

So my 22nd birthday was last Thursday and I am wondering where I stand with a lot of things. At the same time, I'm starting to actually put this I-need-to-worry-about-me thing into affect. Nobody can get to God for me but me, I have to be my own woman of God. So this is what I've decided to do....

Cash is now 22 and counting...each day should mean something. Such is life!!!

Strong Enough

It's been a while...I feel like this blog is going to be long, but who reads anyway? :)


So, I finished the revision of Ava's Story on Christmas Eve, sent off for the copyright a couple of weeks ago and now Shay ( love her to life!) is reading the revision for me. I can't say that I am not excited about being a published author. Someone at work actually wants to throw me a book signing. How about that? I'm a little nervous that no one will come, but once I see that printed book with my name across it, I won't care in the least bit. It's been a long time coming and I believe that I deserve to be proud of myself. Full time worker, full time student and published author and CEO of Dynamic Image Publications at 22? My grind is something so official!

In other news, and I do feel like getting personal, my heart hurts.

Call me a little selfish, but I feel like I already have enough on my plate to be in love alone. You know that song, "Made a Fool" that plays at the end of Love and Basketball when they are playing one on one? "What kind of fool am I, to be easily pushed aside?" Well, that is a question that plagues my mind. I am a very emotional person, I got attached and who wouldn't after a year a half? I see that I can be pushed out of sight and out of mind, but I can't do that. Am I wrong for wanting to feel included in someone's life? A life that I was told I was apart of?

My family is at odds and my granny's 70th birthday is coming up next week. My mom is so stressed, trying to hold relationships together but as I've told her and she's told me times in the past: We can't please everyone. All we can do is pray and seriously just let it go! We can't fix everything nor are we responsible to. We do what we can through God and let him handle the rest. He doesn't need anybody else.

I want to be able to talk to my man about this, but he's in his own little world right now. At a time I feel like he was the only one who understood me besides God....at least I don't have to doubt the latter.

School has started back up and I must get more rest than last semester. Although that 3.3 was good on paper, it was not good to the relationship between my bed and I. It's time to focus on me. 1. God and me. 2. Dynamic Image and me. 3. My progression towards my degree and me. That sounds good to me.

Sorry this was so long, next time I won't wait so long to update.

Creative love, as always....

Cash