I Can't

I've been told several times in my life that I let what other people do effect me way too much. I get upset easily and my feelings seem to always be hurt. I always wondered why I was the cry baby, why I had to be the one who showed emotions too quickly, and I still have no answer.

All I know is, I'm tired. I'm so tired of being around numerous people who do not care about how I feel whatsoever. I'm tired of having to try and hold my emotions in so others won't say that I'm trippin as usual. I'm so tired of wanting the approval of others. I feel as if I have let people hold me back way too long. When does it end? Shouldn't I be able to feel comfortable about expressing my feelings to the person who claims to want to marry me? Shouldn't I be able to talk to my family, my so-called close friends about how I feel?

But as usual...I can't....