Atonement

I believe in my soul, that the only thing standing between you and I
is me.
I wonder where our relationship fell into this never ending circle of deceit
and lies, trapped in my mind of courageous stupidity.
Happens, ever so often, to come to the convicting reality that
I created this separation.
A long time coming, our distance is only magnified by my mistakes.
You are perfection, within me that I have infected.
Only when I open my heart completely, will your presence flood that mere second.
My appreciation falls on idle hands that do not take the time deserved to live in you.
My gratefulness falls on death ears that do not hear enough of your praises.
What lies here is not developing as we both would love time to allow,
situations are expressive of our struggle
You are peace, within that I have diseased with worry
My lack of expressive faith as boggled us down, stagnent.
I thank you for the realization that I cannot wish or desire to stay here, without all of you.
So my atonement is to push through, even if I feel to no avail
I know my true confessions will lead me back to You.